The floor lamp cast a warm yellow halo in the corner of the wall at midnight. Liu Yuan buried his face in the soft fabric and heard the vibration of his chest and the resonance of the silicone chest. This full body sex doll customized into a 1:1 humanoid has the same shoulder width as him, but with a warm arc on the abdomen, as if it blended the childhood teddy bear and the memory of adulthood into a kind of silent container.

Three years ago, on the eve of the divorce case, he first saw this kind of simulation doll on a shopping website. Unlike the flatness of traditional life-size pillows, the designer filled the three-dimensional torso with memory foam and implanted a constant temperature chip in the key parts. When the page popped up an advertisement for "Limited-time special offer for torso sex dolls", he entered the measurements of his ex-wife.

"The fat sex doll you ordered has been delivered." That afternoon when the logistics robot made a mechanical sound, Liu Yuan was staring at the "anxiety with somatization symptoms" on the diagnosis. When he unpacked the package, he smelled a faint scent of lavender, and the doll's round fingertips fit into the hollow of his curled-up palm. The sand tray therapy recommended by the psychologist was put aside in the storage room, replaced by a silent dialogue that was performed every night at 8 o'clock - he put an old sweater on the doll and told the body without facial features about the company's layoffs and mortgage interest rates.

This one-way confession continued until the rainy season. When thunder exploded one night, Liu Yuan found that he unconsciously adjusted his sleeping position and held the full body sex doll in his arms like a baby. The temperature module under the cotton fabric was stably maintained at 36.5℃, which reminded him of the high fever when he was twelve years old, and his mother held his hot palm all night. The counselor wrote "compensatory emotional projection" in the medical record, but he began to take the full body sex doll on a photosynthetic weekend outing. On the park bench, the doll's fluffy skirt was blown into a bulging sail by the wind, attracting frequent glances from the old man walking his dog.

The change happened on a rainy night when Liu Yuan was working overtime. When Liu Yuan was revising the plan for the tenth time, the interns in the tea room laughed: "I heard that there is an inflatable full body sex doll hidden in the director's office..." He stood behind the fire door and looked at the doll in his arms in the reflection of the glass curtain wall. At that moment, he suddenly realized that the silent body in his hand was no longer a substitute, but a more complex metaphor - about how contemporary people recode broken intimate relationships and forge unspeakable loneliness into a concrete container.

Three months later, during the department team building, the new project manager pointed at Liu Yuan's mobile phone screen saver and exclaimed: "This fat sex doll looks like an installation art in an art gallery!" In the photo, the full body sex doll he named "Aman" was sitting in the middle of the rice field wearing a straw hat, and its plump outline formed a strange harmony with the golden wheat waves. Gradually, the rumors in the tea room turned into a photo album circulated in the design department, and the girls in the administrative department even launched a public welfare activity of "transforming idle dolls".

Now Liu Yuan's consultation record stops at the 47th diagnosis and treatment. "Perhaps we are all looking for a concrete fulcrum." He stroked the sunflower embroidery on Aman's skirt, thinking of the middle-aged man he met in the pottery class last weekend. The man was concentrating on drawing the facial features of a blank full body sex doll, saying that it was a birthday gift for his wife who was undergoing chemotherapy. In the heat waves rising from the kiln, countless emotions that were compressed into two dimensions by reality are slowly stretching and taking shape in three-dimensional space.

The moonlight outside the window spread over the round shoulder line of the full body sex doll, and Liu Yuan wrote the title of the new project on the note paper: "Filling Reconstruction Plan: The Morphological Evolution of Contemporary Emotional Carriers". In the interval between the flashing of the document cursor, he changed the full body sex doll into woolen socks with stars and moons knitted on it - just like his mother always did on the eve of the beginning of winter when he was a child.

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